The love that left our lives on Sept 23 has left a void in
my heart that is indescribable and on some days completely debilitating. It has
been said that “Until one has loved an
animal, part of your soul remains unawakened.” The part of my soul that awoke because she
was here and because she loved, was that part that has allowed me to love and
support so many others over the years through their journeys to health and happiness.
When Life throws a curve ball that shakes you to the core,
that makes you question your deepest desires and sole purpose for being
(whether that curve ball be an illness, a death, an accident of self or someone
that you love dearly) what happens to your now seemingly insignificant desire
to lose weight. Do you give up or do you
keep going?For the first 10 days I was numb. Couldn’t eat, didn’t want to eat, felt like I didn’t deserve to eat. Only for a fainting episode did I make myself ingest some food. My precious Green Smoothie that had become a staple of my Raw Food Regime became my saviour. Loaded with Live Foods and Superfoods my Green Smoothie gave me the energy I needed to come out from under the blankets and face the world.
Once the numbness subsided and the pain of living with such
a great loss threatened to engulf my life I found myself wanting to consume
everything in the fridge and pantry (and everybody elses’ fridge and panty) to
fully ensure I felt nothing. I have to say once again ..... Thank God for the Green Smoothie. Full of Live Foods and SuperFoods I managed to get through my days satisfied
and stable enough to constantly question my desire to eat for hunger or for
comfort.
Twelve weeks on and where in the past I would have increased
in size 10fold (due to eating to quell the pain) I find myself getting on the
scales with not one kilo (pounds for my american friends) heavier and not one kilo lighter. Ready to face the world again and my goal of
ditching my remaining study kilos I take with me the knowledge that my choice
to embrace a Raw Food Lifestyle has been a good one and a successful one.
In Loving Memory of my Beautiful Sira and all the pooches
that I will help from this day forward simply because you were here and because
you loved.











